I’m just an artist wanting to make art at my best ability. It’s my major, I’ve poured over 4 years now into it, so there’s not much left to say but let people look at it and be free from this stressful life as a student and make more fruitful artwork.
Looking for jobs. Art jobs of course.
Project Statement
It had to be between middle school and high school when I came up with a very specific idea. I made up a world and in that world, there was once an event that was so very horrific and traumatizing it was simultaneously known by everyone; even newborns knew and cried at the thought of the event. The event was only known as the “Female Shaped Thing”. I didn’t understand how I came up with the idea. It seemingly came out of nowhere to me; at the time I was confused on why I was thinking about it. But now I’ve finally understood what was going on. I was growing older experiencing the world more and more, evolving from girl to a woman, familiarizing myself with my likes and dislikes. The thoughts and drawing of contorting feminine bodies where my youngest explorations on my feelings on being female. Femininity. The mixed messages I got from adults and media, how I personally felt about my body, and how I never had words for it and I still don’t have words for it. I feel that if I put them into words no one could really understand them. So, I’ve been drawing it. Feminine bodies distorting and becoming hard to understand creatures, all intwined with the nerdy pop culture I was most inspired by. I kept drawing it in my sketch books, over years now, and this collection of work is to finally use these thoughts into a full creation.
Artist Statement
I’ve been drawing for years now. When I’m in class the one thing I look forward to doing is to draw as the teacher prattles on. I’ve filled sketchbook after sketchbook with drawings and ideas and it feels like a bad habit now. A bad habit made worse on how I never create full finished artworks of those ideas; the only complete work I have is usually for school. They feel less legitimate to me due to their tied nature to school. That technically hasn’t changed, but they’re still my thoughts put on paper, and they’re deeply tied to me; they’re not made out of pure obligation or purely to get a grade. That’s all I really want, is to let my ideas and creations embody themselves in the form of my art. The medium doesn’t matter as long as the idea inside is presentable and able to be seen by others. So, I’ll use what looks good: watercolor, acrylic, or whatever. Does any of it look good? Does any of it make people think or have questions? Do you like it? Do I like it? That’s all that matters! That is all that matters to me.
